Melaka Trip 030212 - 050212

 this could be the longest i ever had a break from work... 9 days straight!!!

went back to perak (yaaayyy)...and having some family time in melaka (yeaaaay???).

not just us..but with AC's family too...

amidst the fun n enjoyment...sadly there were bitter n harsh feelings too i suppose...not too good memories...and some very good n useful reminder for the next vacation......

1. study the the destination of ur choice. u dont want to get lost n waste ur time, energy, petrol while trying to get the directions to local tourism attractions.

2. pack smartly - if its sunny place, no need to bundle up. if its cold, rainy place...well u know what to pack.

3. medication - pills, patches, oilment - make sure u hve those handy. u WILL need 'em.

4. pick ur company - even if its family, atleast hv a favourite member in ur cmpany. or, go solo if u want. bad company = bad time.

5. prepare urself - u will be frustrated, annoyed,irritated, cursing n yelling at some point or other. in fact, u should. it will make u feel better. 

some memories immortalized in snappy-shots:::

 

the Ahmad family...minus a very much other members...

the writer...in one of the good mood...and one of the good pic...

 

 the whole crew.....

 

 the two sisters...(my fav company...)

 one of the good shots from the whole gallery....

the posing duo...

under the glaring sun...thank God i wasnt tanned...

 isn't it great if they're always like this??... my fav photo!

 

aren't you the hawt one hahahaha

VACATION

FINALLY!!!! A BREAK......sighhhhhhh

Bye 2011...Wello 2012!!!!!

wow! time sure does flies eh? tick-a-tock..now it's 2012! gasp!

a load of things; sweet, bitter, sad, happy, sour, etcetc...had taken place n color 2011. some are memorable..while some...i which i could erase 'em from the history. but while i hate n wish i could do things differently...what's done has been done. let the past go, n use the negativity as a guidance to reach positivity. (whoaahhhhh....nicely done it ms. watie ahmad!!! now, if only YOU (me, myself n i) could remember it next time!)

professionally 2011 - endure a period of 'pokainess' when i quit my previous job, n was jobless for a couple of months. it was hard, since both of us decided to leave at the same time. we kinda finished what was left in our account - i would say we have a bit too much fun. came august, the situation was really pressing, but Sayang manage to brought us both past the current with his off-record jobs. i tried a few places, but no such luck at that time. luckily, i found a job in the nick of time, thanks to angah. thru his contact, i secure an interview, n, bullseye! now im working/serving at this 5-stars residential condo somewhere in the big city, which is quite demanding due to the work schedule. but...i kinda love it. sure..it took a whole lot of commitent to wake up at 6am on weekends...but...over time i kinda pass it...hehe. so far..the job has been good. lets see what 2012 n the dragon would bring me. more wealth perhaps? hahaha...

personally 2011 - it's still a trial year (just like the past 23 years....) i have yet to achive a point where i;d go AHAH! THIS IS IT!! i still have my usual issues with the usual people...but heck..thats life is about aight?? been on a few trips (far n near)...enjoying some lovely time with love one(s)...feeling a bit grown up some time...had a goal on some aspects of life...

romantically 2011 - still going strong with my one n only...sometimes i just want to strangle him, sometime i just want to cuddle up with him, n some other time i wished he'd give me some space to move n breathe on my own. but, love is love, i i put that above anything else. for as long as he do not physically hurt me, i still can mend the emotional ones...most of it anyways. so, mr.Dragon, pls shine more love, understanding, tolerance, trust, health n wealth on us. :)

family 2011 - owh come on....the usuals laaaahh...except this year being noticably upsetting sometime during june when dear daddy was hospitalised. that was THE saddest, shocking, frightening thing for me in 2011. 

my hope(s) for 2012...may it be the better year. part of me is ready for a settlement (ahem! married life), just that the $$$ is not there yet.  

so, i wish for a better health n wealth, prosperity n longevity, so i can plan n have my own fairytale wedding (read: simple, close-knit-only, no huhaah). i hope that my professional life would prosper, gimme more money...me n my family to grow closer that ever...close that old chapter n start a new one...n i do wish YOU to have the same prosperous 2012!

My Quiet Heart...Silently Screaming...pt.2

today i woke up feeling pretty good, even it's waay too early in a Sunday morning. fast-forward 3 hours later, i'm drowning myself in anger, dissapointment, frustration, and slightly out of love. and just like always, the culprit behind my moods is forever oblivious to it all, acting like nothing happen, and thinking i'm just too childish and too woman-lish to act like this.

if only he say that 1 word, i'll be fine again. but nooooo....he's just....being himself!

yes, he bought me a bouquet of roses few days back, but if he thinks that THAT will keep me happy for the whole life, he thinks DEAD WRONG!!!!!

is it too much to ask? am i too much of high-maintenance kinda girl? materialistic? money & wealth-oriented? care so much for status & class? NO!!!

i just wanted him to treat me properly, like any decent n proper guy would. i'm not gonna ditch him just because he's technically jobless now. he's been making money in his own way, and i think i've supportive enough now. i don't nag him like the other people did, i don't complaint or question his situation or whatever. i don't even complaint when Mama 'talk' to me about him.

and just like any other time, i'm the one who give up in a fight. i'm the one who's mad, angry, hurt, sad - but i'm the one who said SORRY...

i've told u before Sayang to not hurt my heart like others do, but u never listen. u thought u had me, n i'll simply forgive u - forgive is not forget....

My Quiet Heart...Silently Screaming....

i take this pill to make me thin

i dye my hair and cut my skin

i tried everything 

to make them see me

but all they see is someone that's not me

here inside my quiet heart

you cannot hear

my cries for help

i tried everything 

to make them see me

but everyone sees what i can't be

even when i'm walking on a wire

even when i set myself on fire

why do i always feels invisible

everyday i try to look my best

even though inside i'm such a mess

why do i always feels so invisible

invisible.......