today i woke up feeling pretty good, even it's waay too early in a Sunday morning. fast-forward 3 hours later, i'm drowning myself in anger, dissapointment, frustration, and slightly out of love. and just like always, the culprit behind my moods is forever oblivious to it all, acting like nothing happen, and thinking i'm just too childish and too woman-lish to act like this.
if only he say that 1 word, i'll be fine again. but nooooo....he's just....being himself!
yes, he bought me a bouquet of roses few days back, but if he thinks that THAT will keep me happy for the whole life, he thinks DEAD WRONG!!!!!
is it too much to ask? am i too much of high-maintenance kinda girl? materialistic? money & wealth-oriented? care so much for status & class? NO!!!
i just wanted him to treat me properly, like any decent n proper guy would. i'm not gonna ditch him just because he's technically jobless now. he's been making money in his own way, and i think i've supportive enough now. i don't nag him like the other people did, i don't complaint or question his situation or whatever. i don't even complaint when Mama 'talk' to me about him.
and just like any other time, i'm the one who give up in a fight. i'm the one who's mad, angry, hurt, sad - but i'm the one who said SORRY...
i've told u before Sayang to not hurt my heart like others do, but u never listen. u thought u had me, n i'll simply forgive u - forgive is not forget....
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